Sunday, July 15, 2012

Words...when you have no words.

I have so much to say, but cannot find the words to articulate.  It is not often that I am lost for words, but this week has left me dry.  High and dry.  I've never believed in the "it's not fair".  But this week  - "it's not fair".  It just isn't.  Tragedy shouldn't happen to good people.  To good families.  It just shouldn't.  It's painful.  Painful for them and painful for all who love them.  It sucks.

I prayed.  Even when I said I didn't know who I prayed to.  But it didn't work.  So now what?  What do I do next time I need to pray?  Believe?

I don't know how I can make it better.  Help to take away the pain.  I'm running on empty, but don't want to admit it - because I know they are emptier than empty.  And it's not fair.

I love that they lived their lives together to the fullest.  That he soared higher because she enabled him to.  She lifted him up and he her.  I love that she will continue to lift her children up, to soar higher than the heights they imagine.  Her love is that great.

I love that I can call her my friend.  It's a privilege.  And in this most shittiest of situations, I hope that I can do our friendship justice by helping her in any way, shape or form.  However I am required.

I know, deep in the depths of my soul, that he is watching over her.  And will continue to do so - lending his strength to hers.

Be strong my friend.  But also be brave.  I know it will be OK.



  1. Thinking of you and your friend Midge. She is so lucky to have a friend like you. Xx

  2. I have been praying for your friend's husband's safety too, ever since your post about it a week ago. It was gut wrenching to hear the very sad news. I will continue to keep that family in my prayers, and you too as you seek to help and comfort in whatever way you can. God bless.

    1. Thank you for your thoughts. It's lovely to know that people who don't even know her family are thinking of her xx

  3. a beautiful post Midge... so genuine... I cried reading it... I can feel through your writing here how much you were hurting xxx

    1. Thanks Leesa......It was a really tough post to write, but something I wanted to say. Still struggling to think that this is the reality of it all now. xxx


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